QIN

2010-04-05T20:53:00.001+08:00

forgot to update another great news..

my GPA as well as Didi's GPA maintain!

yeah for us :DDD

2010-04-05T20:41:00.004+08:00

life's currently on the downside due to attachment. seriously, no damn fucking life. work from monday to saturday, non-stop. and every time you feel like giving up, you just have to keep telling yourself that it will be over soon. seeing Didi and family after a hard day work is all i look forward to. right from the very start of the day at 7 fucking am in the morning. having attachment with no one around whom you know, sucks. i miss disturbing people. but on the other hand, i'm more focused this way. everything has its pros's and con's. feel like telling this off but come to think about it, there's no point in doing so. let her learn her own damn lesson. woke up at 6.15am on my morning shift. was late like shit but i had my saviour by my side. after all this nagging, everything's good (:

paramedic training for 3 days!

2010-02-23T14:24:00.002+08:00

you're half way there. don't give up.

2010-02-20T15:31:00.004+08:00

saturday afternoon. nice day to go out and prolly catch chingay at marina. but sadly, i have to study and revise for 4 papers next week. 6 modules, 4 papers. amacam? Didi's being really supportive, reminding me and even coming over to accompany to study. thank you pakcik (:

everton vs man u tonight. votes are showing everton will win.

hopefully not. hah! :D

2010-02-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of a very hectic and stressful week. With papers back-to-back, hopefully I’ll get through it in one piece; no accidents, no mishaps. Dear brain, please don’t quit on me. Please splurge whatever nonsense you have onto the following papers.

And my eyes are cocking up again! I think I’ll be blind soon. Or at least, get a decent pair of glasses. This is F irritating!

2010-02-16T14:29:00.002+08:00

2010-02-08T23:31:00.005+08:00

thought of uploading the photos from JB trip. finally got hold of Didi's camera but sadly, the photos are in his bloody laptop! so forget about the photos cuz it will take that pakcik some time to send it to me. hah.

yesterday night, caught 'Seducing Mr. Perfect'! saw the commercial for quite a few times. thought that its nice but didn't promise myself to catch it. sometimes those things which are unplanned are the ones which work out in the end. so after watching 'Bujang Lapok', Didi all time favourite cuz he is also one, channel surfed and caught the movie! go watch k? especially Ms Hanani! its a Korean movie! i'm sure you'll like it :DDD

so i'm officially done with presentations and lectures. can also say that i'm done with tutorials cuz i can't make it for tomorrrow's tutorial and i'm still contemplating whether to skip Friday's pharmacology tutorial. exams are drawing near with less than 2 weeks! gotta spend the CNY holidays studying then. pathetic..

i'm only going to school for 2 freaking hours tomorrow just to observe people panic and watch the patient die! ok, i sound evil. i got SBL laaa.. can stop being so crude and narrow minded? i'm not 'that' evil k? heee..

i really hope your designs will clinch you a spot :DDD insya allah, amin :)

2010-02-06T22:32:00.003+08:00

please stop pissing me off. i have already changed the usb wire, plug you in/out numerous times and still you are undetectable! thank you for letting me down. i am seriously on the verge of throwing my hard disk at the wall! its true that free stuffs are ciplak.

i'm tired from another whole day trip to JB. finally they have stop mourning. you guys should have went to JB last Saturday. smuggle in some oil, flour or rice for all you want! not a single customs staffs were there! except for those who chop chop your passport lah. so the main itinery for the day was to send the car for servicing. didn't had much time to spare for shopping. it was more of a eat, walk-walk, rest cycle. will upload the photos once i get them from Didi. knowing how he is, wait long long for the photos..

Ms Hanani, i hope that you are pleased that i grant your wish!

2010-02-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

i just feel that life is unfair. no words can make the other party understand your point. sometimes, its much easier to be in someone else's shoes so that you don't have to explain. though i do agree that you don't mention that you don't take sides but through your acts it shows that you did. i just feel that sometimes your words contradicts your act. i know i only play a pivotal role in your life cuz' your future is in my hands. but don't i have the same rights and freedom as everyone else to determine what i want in my life? you had your chance with your life. quoted from what Ris Low said,

"my life is my life. that's why its called my life. MY LIFE.".

2010-01-30T12:51:00.004+08:00

someone actually wanted Kanye's eight hundred dollar sneakers. guess who?

i think my BF has OCD.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

:DDD

2010-01-27T12:56:00.006+08:00

there's always a kid in me :DDD

2010-01-26T22:25:00.006+08:00

2nd day of vacation leave and i'm rotting at home. managed to clean some of the stuffs up in the room. glad that atleast there's some progress compared to 3 weeks back when my room was even worst than a pig's sty. there's some stuffs which i still need to buy from ikea like photo frames and plastic containers to organize my stuffs. ibu have been nagging to stop all purchases with regards to my room. according to her, i'm went over the budget. haha! i didn't know that there was even a budget in the first place! my room has yet to be painted. will probably do it closer to hari raya :D its only the start of 2010 and i'm already thinking of hari raya. stop it eh..

2nd day of vacation leaave and i have not done much revision for the coming year end examinations. i know the dates are back to back and the content of the modules aren't helping to make studying easier.

19 feb: adult nursing

22 feb: biological science

23 feb: health sociology, medical sociology, practitioner-patient relationship

(3 modules jam into a 1 hour paper. gerek tak? buku setebal-tebal tapi kluar setotet je..)

24 feb: pharmacology

25 feb: health psychology, social psychology

shall not waste any more time. only 3 weeks left to the most miserable week of my life. planning to revise adult nursing and biology tomorrow. literally revise!

oh fuck, i just missed cinta fitri. urgh. have to wake up early and watch the encore telecast tomorrow morning then. malas nyer!

2010-01-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

just came back from JB. been a long time since i've been there. walked around angsana and got myself and for Didi a pair of dopie slippers. murah murah murah! :DDD wanted to get some other stuffs over there since its really cheap but there's lots of other stores to visit. plus shopping wasn't in the itinery in the first place. haha! going out again after prayers to mustafa.

gonna meet that little love again. :DDD till next time!

2010-01-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

today marks the last day of FHS posting at Outram and 3 weeks of final posting for year 2. after the exams, hello year 3! can't believe i'm a year away to graduation. poly life really pass by so fast. and in a course where almost half of your curriculum is filled with attachment, the faster time past by. i'm just relieved and grateful that i manage to pull through these 3 weeks of posting in one piece without any glitches. though there were some minor accident during IMH posting, but still can tahan :D

after work, Didi came to fetch me since he's on MC today. should thank me for your MC ok? if i didn't bug you to see the doctor, you wouldn't even have an MC k? haha! i just hope that your throat and cough will get better. maybe its those after effects of not smoking for quite some time? haha! but its not a reason for you to be picking up the habit again aight!

head down to arab street. didn't intend to shop but just to look around. in the end, this boy of mine ended up buying 5 tops at a very reasonable price :DD but still, there's quite a few stuffs left on his lists. i have yet to cancel anything on my list since i'm busy with postings. haha! wait for pay day then it will be my turn k Didi? haha!

was craving for food by the time we went out of the store. could not decide what to have for dinner. one thing led to another and we ended up having our dinner at eighteen chefs all thanks to Fatin Azrin's direction! :DD tried something new from the usual stuff. should remind myself to try the baked rice during the next visit! and the student price is also cheap! main dish, drink and ice cream for only $6.40++!

ok Ibu is pestering me to get ready for tomorrow's trip to Malaysia. night!

2010-01-21T18:50:00.005+08:00

was in DRP and DFS room today. staffs over there pun gerek :D really inspired by the senior staffs cuz they are able to speak in multiple languages! one indian staff who looks chinese is able to speak in all 4 language fluently. the nurse in the DRP room speaks hokkien fairly well. but to see the amount of interest and time she puts in to learn the language amazes me. they are senior staffs who are like 50++ years old and they can still register new stuffs into their fully loaded brain!

and she was trying so hard to get this hokkien word right until it sounds vulgar. cute la.. she was trying to say "ah jie bi" which means last/next time which i can't remember. she kept on repeating the word trying to making it sounds right. but she emphasized on the wrong word and it came out as "ah chee bi"!

jacqueline cheng rui min alexis faith! you have to teach me more of hokkien ok and not just "kacheng ki lai" or "kia ki ko". you can teach nnesah all the vulgar words :D

let's face reality. even if you learn some foreign language like french, what's the probability that you would practice conversing the language. unless of course if you are going to france la or have some french patients! but tell me the chances of nursing hokkien speaking patients to french patients?! really cannot understand those who take up language classes. not as if we could understand what the hell you are trying to say!

SG: when are you leaving singapore?
FR: la semaine prochaine.
SG: what? your semen got porsche?

sorry if all my post have been about attachments. to be honest, that's what happen today! and also on every other days.. except for one or two odd days. just live with it lah ok? don't like what you are reading, you can scram off somewhere else :D

2010-01-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

good news;

1. i didn't encounter any problem with my card today :D
2. i went out abit later and yet i managed to reach the polyclinic by 7.40am, which is still early but atleast not as early as the first day :D
3. dressing room is fun (cuz of the gerek ENs) and interesting (different from surgical where you change dressing after 3rd POD and perform STO) :D
4. attachment has been going smoothly so far. except for one or two staffs which both students and staffs despise. 2 more days to go before its finally over. :D

2010-01-19T19:06:00.007+08:00

2nd day at FHS Outram.

went out 10 minutes later than i did yesterday. overestimated the time taken for the whole journey. thought that it will take me an hour to get there but i was wrong. the whole trip is only 35 to 40 minutes long. upon arriving at Outram MRT, made my way from East West line to North East line exit since its much nearer to HPB. had some trouble while tapping out when i had no problem tapping in. when i think back; my funds was sufficient, my concession have not expired and there was no problem when i tapped in earlier.

so instead of wasting time trying to tap my card on the card reader over and over again like some gundu and end up blocking the other passengers, i approach the passenger service counter, hoping that they would resolve the matter. there was only one staff in the counter and he was currently attending to some other passenger. when he finish serving the customer, i thought that he would immediately attend to me. but, no. he attended to his precious handphone; took it out, check for any messages or calls and went to charge it. and he do it all directly in front of me. am i invisible? can't you see that there's a passenger waiting to be served?

putting that issue aside, he asked for my card and did something on the computer. then i heard,"ten dollars added. have a nice day,". and he could smile and giggle before saying,"i accidentally top up your card. your card is fine. can you pay $10?".

like what the? maybe it was my mistake that i did not mention to him that i was experiencing some problem with my card and couldn't tap out. but did i told you to top up my card? i clearly did not. and even if it is a normalcy for the passenger service staffs to be topping up passenger's cards, they cannot assume that it applies to all situation. first of all, if my card was credited with insufficient value, won't i be able to tap into the station? i would have been prompted earlier when i was tapping in right? doesn't it make any sense that i was in the station and had some problem getting out of the station?

called Ayah up and told him about the incident. he said that this is a common issue that passengers has raised up. if its something common, don't you think you guys should do something about it? assess the situation first lah. ask the passenger first. get a rough idea of the problem faced by the passenger and then resolve it!

imagine if you apply this example to nursing. here comes an elderly woman who's complaining of headache. you happily go and send the patient for MRI, CT scan which cost 89747916y4908 dollars. and when the results came back,"oh, your results looks fine. you're healthy just that you have a slight migraine. can you please pay $89747916y4908?". you tell me how you feel?

dumbass.

2009-08-27T14:22:00.000+08:00

2009-07-13T20:30:00.003+08:00

Currently caught up with tests and presentation.
Jangan harap aku akan update.
Bye!

2009-07-10T19:46:00.001+08:00

Rintihan Seorang Jejaka

Saya suka tengok jari girlfriend saya...
Cantik betul... Sungguh!
Sampai takut nak pegang...
Bukan takut patah...
Tapi takut nanti jari kitorang tak boleh tolong each other
Di satu hari yang giler forever depan yang Maha Esa...

Saya suka tengok rambut girlfriend saya...
Cantik betol... Sungguh!
Sebab tu saya belikan tudung...
Bukan sebab jealous orang lain tengok jugak...
Tapi takut nanti terbakar dek api neraka
Di suatu hari yang giler forever

Saya suka tengok body girlfriend saya...
Cantik betol... Sungguh!
Sebab tu saya belikan dia telekong
Supaya mase dia jumpa dengan Kekasih dia Yang Utama
Dia lagi cantik dan berseri menghadapNya.
Saya pun tumpang dapat pahala. Shioknye...

Saya sedih tengok girlfriend saya
Tak tido, tak makan rindu kat saya...
Saya pun macam tu jugak,
Ada problem yang sama...
Dia tanya apa ubatnya?
Saya pun bagi dia Quran untuk penenang jiwa...
Semoga lebih cintakanNya dari saya...

Saya sedih tengok girlfriend saya
Selalu pesan macam-macam kat saya...
"Makan, minum, drive elok-elok tau..
Nanti awak sakit saye susah ati bla bla bla bla" katenya....
Tapi bila tengok movie sama-sama burn asar maghrib gitu
Dia tak kata satu aper pun...
Berdosanye saya....

Kesimpulannya saya memang sayang dia...
Nak jumper dia giler forever...
Yang forever punye forever...
Di dunia dan akhirat terutamanya,
Janji nak share heaven sama-sama...
Bahagia selamanya...

Semoga kami saling mengingati,
Dosa sendiri pun infiniti...
Nak tanggung dosa dia lagi pulak lepas ni...
Semoga kami menginsafi diri...
Ya Allah ampunkanlah kami.....
Semoga kami dapat bersama selamanya nanti...

2009-06-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

2 years and still counting (:

2009-06-23T23:13:00.006+08:00

on June 18, 2009..

meet Syuhaila Safingi & Fatin Hanani Ahmad Hambali
(namer panjang tapi orang nyer ketot. hah!)

"hot stuff!"

2009-06-18T23:48:00.003+08:00

My hair can be mistaken for a lion's mane. I cannot tahan already. What more with the hot hot HOT weather.

I feel like chopping it off!

2009-06-13T00:12:00.001+08:00

Attachment is finally over! I repeat eh,

ATTACHMENT IS FINALLY OVER!

2009-06-09T21:45:00.001+08:00

Last morning shift for the whole attachment tomorrow. 3 more days and its over. Throughout this 4 weeks of attachment, I realised that,

ME ≠ distressed woman

I don’t know how am I gonna survive MH posting. I think I'll end up joining them. Oh how I miss TTSH. Hah.

Bumped into Kecik and F-Mon while waiting for the shuttle. That was the highlight of the day. Both of them simply lift my spirits up. And knowing that I'll be seeing them again tomorrow, is the only thing which I am looking forward for. Hah. F-Mon, please confirm date ASAP so we can start planning (:

3 done, 1 more to go. Please get this over and done with. I'm getting tired of chasing after you people. I don’t think deciding on a sub-topic will take 4 weeks. Please lah ehh..

2009-06-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

Am not liking attachment. Am growing tired of attachment. Oh, how I miss and cherish school. I don't mind attending boring lectures and tutorials. Never mind, just persevere. Four more days. Just 4 more days.

2009-05-27T21:51:00.001+08:00

Happy 23rd (:

2009-05-26T19:59:00.002+08:00

Paediatrics posting is almost over. Routine is definitely different than Medical/Surgical. Relax and non-stressing. But given a choice, I will still choose Medical/Surgical over Paediatrics. Up next, hello obstetrics and gynae. Urrggghhhh..

Like a friend of mine has (not once but) twice said, in this line, you are bound to meet your long lost friend, family, relative, colleague, etc.. True enough, I bumped into my primary school best friend, Nazura. Maybe this doesn't happen to all of you but you know how in primary school your best friend would change yearly according to the class you are in? Though Nazura had never been in the same class nor the same CCA as me, she never fails to be there for me. Strange how we could click though. Nevertheless, it was great bumping into you (: Truly made my day KECOH! Haha.

Ok. Ibu wanna go NTUC. Talk again soon aight!

2009-05-14T21:12:00.001+08:00

What's happening in this head of mine?

About a week or two weeks ago, I was on the way home and wanted to alight at Yew Tee. I think I was in a dazed or day dreaming and I didn't alight. I had to alight at Choa Chu Kang and board another train back to Yew Tee. The same thing happened today. I was on the way to tuition and was suppose to alight at Choa Chua Kang. Luckily on both events, I didn't had to wait so long for another train back.

For the first time, I'm having PE tomorrow. Hah.

I'm sorry if I broke down in front of you. But I guess, all this while I've been holding it inside me for too long and I can't carry this burden on my shoulder no more. I don't wish to pretend, to put on a fake face everyday single damn day. So now you know the reason behind my silence. I just hope you understand.

That's all I'm asking. Thank you.

2009-05-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

A week away till attachment. Presentations still not completed yet. Am gonna die soon. If not, I should jolly well go and kill myself. I can't wait to get these over and done with. Seems like everyone's having group discussion almost every single day. School is getting mundane. Its always the same old cycle.

2009-05-10T13:30:00.001+08:00

Happy Mummy's Day (:

2009-05-07T21:39:00.001+08:00

I have tons of work waiting for me. Sorry for the lack of updates. Talk soon (:

2009-04-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

3 more weeks of school and hello attachment! Sub group is currently rushing through tutorial presentations and ICA. Hopefully, to get them all done before attachment since we'll be busy with ICA and clinical tests.

Weekdays are jammed packed with lecturers, tutorials and discussion starting at 8am and ending at 6pm. Not forgetting tuition since the kids mid-year is coming soon. I just realised that I sound like a mother of four. Hah. My initial plan to revise has always been occupied with research for presentations and preparation for lab and tutorials.

Ok. I wanna watche The Nanny :P

To you,

I understand what you are going through and feeling right now for I am experiencing the same thing. Nevertheless, don't let it affect you. Learn to accept it for God has planned this for us. Who knows? Maybe God has planned something better for us instead (:

And you,

Happy 22nd (: Don't lose your wallet again hor!

2009-04-24T13:33:00.001+08:00

I have 15 minutes before I leave the house for tuition. And I don't wish to go.

It's not that I don't want to teach them or I don't want the money. Yes, I do want it cuz' I have loads of stuffs on my mind which I wanna get particularly electronics which costs hundred over dollars. I'm waiting for the next PC show in June. Hopefully, I could save enough by then. Hmmm..

Anyhoot, back to the main point here. I think F-mon knows how I'm feeling right now. When you said that you will start the lesson now, they will create 1001 excuses like "I want to go toilet" or "I'm thirsty ah. I go drink water first k. For awhile only," and the classic one "Wait ah, kak. I go and get my book first,". And their definition of "awhile" or "sekejap" is like 5 to 10 minutes? Like hey, I don't mind if you are wasting time because at the end of the day, I'm still getting paid. But what irritates me the most is that you expect me to believe that you can't even focus and concentrate for just an hour? Five minutes also cannot. Your attention span so little meh? The rest of the day, you can do whatever you like and its none of my business. But when I'm there, I expect some respect from you. I could be doing other fruitful stuffs rather than spending my time there. What's the purpose of my presence? I expect a little co-operation today. I tried to raised the point to the parents but to no avail. You know how parents are so defensive over their kids these days. Teachers can't even lay a finger on them or they will report it as abuse. Like .. Back during my time, my Malay teacher would "piat" your ears and twist it around as if it’s a toy. Kids these days are so pampered.

And when you give them any assignments or homework, you come back the next day and nothing is done. The page is still as squeaky clean as you saw it the previous day. And they have the cheek to say that they had attempted the question but cannot solved. And when exams are drawing near, they start to panic like as if Singapore will be hit by tsunami. And then expect me to give you guys last minute crash course? Pfft.

Okay. I have to go.

2009-04-17T13:55:00.000+08:00

2009-04-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

I have good news. And, I have bad news too.

Good news first aight. Alhamdulillah, I passed the test! I think I sat in front of the screen with the word 'PASSED' flashing in front of me for 5 seconds before I went out of the room. Haha!

So this afternoon, I got a call from TTSH. They have rescheduled my appointment from 8 May to TODAY! And just yesterday, some Ms Tan from NYP called to check on me and asked about the incident and told me to go for another check up since I'm still experiencing headache. Hospital macam tau jer eh? Haha! So after the test, went for the appointment. Along the way, I was convincing Ibu, Ayah and Kakak that I'm well enough to go back to training on Saturday since my MC last till this Friday. But they kept on saying that the doctor will have the final say. Grrrrr!

So throughout the rest of the journey, I was praying that the doctor will let me resume training. So met the doctor, blah blah blah. He asked me whether I remember doing any scans. Hello? I had a concussion. Do you think I remember what I even said to the policemen? By the way, I told the policeman right in the face, "Eh, namer style ah!". I don't know if its true. But that's what Kakak told me. Hah. Anyhoot, the whole appointment was going well when suddenly he said (here comes the bad news),

"I think its best that you don't attend silat for atleast 1 month,".

…

I went out of the room, looked at Ayah and he just shrugged. I went towards the couch at the waiting area and cried. YES! I CRIED! WHY? BECAUSE THE DOCTOR, AYAH and IBU DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO GO SILAT! So as Ayah went to make the payment, Ibu and Kakak was "coaxing" me trying to make some sense pertaining to the doctor's decision. So I immediately snapped back and said that I didn't want to get injured in the first place, I didn't want to get this stupid head injury. All I want is to perform for Club Crawl! So Ayah made this deal about me not joining tanding and only seni. I think I lost count on the number of times he mentioned that. I get the point! No more tanding!

And I just received a text message from Ain. Ahhhhhh! I want to go training so badly! :'(

2009-04-15T23:03:00.002+08:00

It finally dawn on me that tomorrow is April 16 which means.. The test is TOMORROW! Oh damn. I guess I was too caught up with the things that's happening around me that I almost forgot about it. Pray for me that I'll be able to pass the test. I don't wish to wait for another freaking month to re-sit for the test again.

I miss NYP Silat. I miss the people. My pantat is itchy. I wanna go back to training. I want to start training for Club Crawl but Ibu and Ayah is refraining me from attending as long as I'm on MC. So I guess I'll try my best to get on their good side and convince them that I'm well enough to attend Saturday's training. Heh. Pray for me that I'll recover soon aite.

2009-04-12T22:57:00.007+08:00

This was how I felt yesterday and partially, today. In conclusion, I had a concussion.

FALL RISK!

When I looked at my patients, I always asked myself what does it feels like to be warded? Finally, my dream is fulfilled. Ibu called this morning and the first thing she asked was,

Tidur lena? Ader nampak pape tak? *Did you had a good sleep? Did you saw anything?*

Thanks eh Bu for your "concern". Haha! I think I have a good rapport with the "people" over there. I think "they" have seen my face too many times that they are sick and tired of me. Hah.

I talked alot of crap throughout my stay. Half of the time I wasn't awake.

Once again, thank you guys for all your well wishes.

To Cinonet; takmo risau pasal ku. Ku okay. Takde saper pun marah kat kau. These things are bound to happen. Love you loads, babe (:

To Ten; sorry klau Iqin susahkan Ten. Thanks for everything (:

To Ain Medic and Rad; thanks a lot for taking care of me. I know you guys are sick and tired of nursing injured athletes. Maner yang tak bawak tape sendiri, maner yang tak warm up betul-betul sampai dapat cramps. Bukan niat Iqin nak susahkan korang. Klau boleh Iqin tak nak susahkan saper-saper pun. Once again, many thanks to the both of you. Klau korang takde, entah aper lah jadi kat kiter. Heh.

5 days MC and I'm still having holidays. So what's the point?

2009-04-10T12:05:00.000+08:00

2009-04-07T01:38:00.002+08:00

Apologies for my absence. I shall now post a proper update.

1) 3 weeks of attachment is over. 2 more weeks and hello lectures and tutorials! Plus, I heard that Year 2 is freaking tough! With pharmacology, adult nursing and the skills. Die!

2) My Sony Ericsson W910i is currently undergoing servicing due to the fact that there is no display at all on the screen. But still, I could receive calls and messages (but I can't read them so what's the point right?), send messages and call out. The sad thing is; my 1 year warranty has ended and thus, I have to fork out for the servicing. The nice lady said that I had to pay $10.70 for the "evaluation fee" or in other words, to check what's wrong with my bloody phone lah. And so the nice lady said if it's the system, then I have to fork out another $15 but if it’s the LCD screen, the amount will be roughly around $100.00++. 3 days later, I got a call from the service center and the rude lady said they have check my phone and to repair it, I have to pay a sum of $350.00. Yup, that's right. Three hundred and fifty Singapore dollars! Might as well I get a new phone right?

3) After 8 long years of courtship, my sister finally got engaged to her beau! (That explains why I didn't turn up for training. Sorry guys! I will be back soon aight!)

2009-03-29T11:43:00.001+08:00

Did you made the right decision? Did you 'Vote Earth' and switch off you lights for a whole hour?

I did. Well, my family did. And their idea of "switching off the lights" was to "get out of the house" and go to NTUC Fairprice. -______________-"

So today, I accompanied Ibu to Bukit Gombak to buy some groceries and on the way back she saw someone selling ubi or tapioca. And so she said..

IBU: Qin! Tengok! Dier jual ubi underground.
ME: Ubi underground? Sejak biler ni ibu dah start pakai word underground?
IBU: Sejak Qiqin ajar ibu..
ME: *shakes head*

I think what she was trying to say was the tapioca was brought in to Singapore illegally. Ok. I must be mindful of what I'm saying next time. Hah.

2009-03-28T11:22:00.002+08:00

2009-03-25T20:52:00.003+08:00

I think my dear Nnesah is dying to hear about the SHS posting. So here it goes..

I finally met F-mon after our bowling and Gelare meet-up which was about 2 weeks ago. We definitely expressed how much we missed the other 2 morons and kept on reminiscing the past every now and then. Especially Kecik, when we were about to board the train. And if her train happens to arrive earlier then yours, she will laugh at you like nobody's business. I miss that. Speaking of train, there was an incident at Clementi MRT on the first day of SHS. Among all the day, it MUST happened on that day. Nevertheless, I was earlier than F-mon. So it doesn't matter (:

Went to HPB, had briefing and yada yada yada. They basically give you a rough idea on what you'll be expecting in the school, the different stations, assigned us with assignments (Yes, Nnesah. You have to do an assignment and present it to the lecturer.) and told us which school we were attached to.

We were sent to North Spring Primary and its waaaaaayyyyy over at Sengkang. Kimak! It took me 1 hour 30 minutes to reach the bloody school! But the HPB team at the school was nice (: They taught us on the different stations, expected outcomes and answered whatever bullshit questions we asked. But it was rather routine. So you keep on doing the same thing over and over, and over, and over again!

The best station would have to be the immunisation station. Seeing the expression on their faces, simply classic! Their face will crunch up like a piece of paper ball after taking the Polio but soon after will turn as white as a ghost when the nurse started to take out the needle from the cool box. Hah.

But the most funniest one would have to be the one who cried and shouted,"PAAIIINNNN!" after the nurse swab her arm with normal saline.

Tell me what's sooooo painful about plain water? -____________________-"

2009-03-22T14:39:00.001+08:00

From the outside, say if you were a cabdriver watching frantic jaywalkers scramble to cross the street in the final seconds before the light changed, it was only a mundane, urban snapshot: two seeming strangers, with little in common but their flimsy black umbrellas, passing in an intersection, making fleeting eye contact and exchanging stiff but not unfriendly hellos before moving on their way.

But inside was a very different story. Inside, I was reeling, churning, breathless as I made it onto the safety of the curb. Like seeing a ghost, I thought, one of those expressions I've heard a thousand times but never fully registered until that moment.

2009-03-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

In a blink of an eye, I'm left with 2 weeks of attachment. I have a case study to do. Dammit. Can't wait for SHS posting! Finally, a change in environment.

Kids, here I come! :D

2009-03-12T21:42:00.002+08:00

Excuse me.

Even if I'm someone close to you, someone whom you know practically for your whole damn life, this isn't the way to treat someone who's older and wiser than you. It doesn't mean that I'm keeping my mouth shut while monitoring your every move, you could simply overrule me and to the extend of stepping over my head. What happened today had surpass my limits. I won't be some fool kneeling in front of you while begging and compromising with you to do what you are suppose to do. I think you are wise enough to think what's best for you even though your beloved may think that you are still a small kid. I won't force you to do things that you do not wish to do. No reason to do something if you're not sincere about it. Might as well you pack up your stuff and leave. Learn to respect others if you wish for the same.

Screw you.

2009-03-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

The first time I heard this song, I was in the kitchen having lunch with Kakak. Upon hearing the lyrics, especially the chorus, I stopped eating.

Putus nyamuk? Lagu aper sia putus nyamuk? Takde lagu lain pe?
Dalam banyak-banyak bende dia buat lagu pasal nyamuk?!

Ayah overheard my comment and he stopped his work and listened intently to the song.

Ayah: Qin. Bukan nyamuk lah! NyamBUNG! Putus nyambung!
Kakak: A'ah lah. Kau ni.. Break patch, break patch.

K. I admit I pekak. Sorry lor. Still, even if I dig my ears everyday (which I do), masih tetap pekak. How?

Had training today. First time going for gym training. Was blur even worst than a sotong. Luckily Ain and Zaf was there to show Nadiah, Aisyah and I around (: Normal training started around 8pm. Brushed up on steps. Training ended close to 10pm. Heard that there's gonna be silat camp next week from Wednesday to Friday. Don't know if I could make it cuz' I'm having attachments. Haiz.

Note to self; be more aggressive and confident, practice tendangan kuda and takmo kanchiong!

2009-03-07T01:30:00.004+08:00

Sorry to disappoint any of you out there. As you all may have already know, I have been suffering from this disease called "penyakit M". This particular disease causes people to be lazy. Thus, I can't be bothered to post about my birthday entries. Furthermore, I turned 18 two weeks ago. So I guess, its old news by now. Hah.

Nevertheless, I need to thank a whole bunch of people. So here it goes..

First and foremost, thanks to Ibu, Ayah and Kakak for the wishes, your unfailing doas and the cake (:
To Didi for the cable car ride, the presents (I think there's a total of 5 presents. Hah!), the treats (makan, makan, makan!) and the surprises.
To F4 for the surprise and treat to Swensens.
To Kak Idah and Abang Is for the treat at Sakura and shisha.
To 10 for the cupcake and rose (and LJS coupons from Acap).
To NYP Silat for sabo-ing me with a tub full of ice-water (refreshing giler sampai brain freeze!).
To Hanani and Ayn for the T-shirt.
To Abang Nur and Kakak for the watch and top.
To Cik Anam, Cik Dian and Cinta Melissa for the chocolates (I hope you like your birthday gifts, budak kecik!).

And finally, to those who have wished me (I think you people know who your are :] )

I need to wake up at 6am for training tomorrow. And look at what I'm doing at 1.30am in the morning? Gi tido lahhhh! Macam maner tak ngantok during training?! Deng!

2009-03-02T22:41:00.004+08:00

Birthday Part 2

I thought that I could post all the birthday entries in one shot.
Apparently, I can't. Hah.
Next entry, birthday part 3!

2009-03-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

BIRTHDAY PART 1

So my first 18th birthday was celebrated with F4's. So on the last day of paper, they planned to go bowling at Yishun SAFRA. When arrived, we were given only an hour to play since there was a tournament going on in an hour's time. After the game ended, I suggested on playing pool but all of them walked out of SAFRA instead. Took the bus back to Northpoint and suddenly there was a commotion. Fatin wants to eat at MacDonalds, Jacq wants to eat at LJS, Nnesah didn't feel like eating and out of the blue, Didi called. So they just dragged me as I was on the phone. I ended up standing in front of Swensen's and said, "Aper niiii?!".

From the bottom of my heart, I thank each and everyone of you for making my 18th a memorable one. Pandai-pandai ehh korang plan. Mentang-mentang I always come late, you guys take advantage of the situation ehh. Next time I come early uhh (Yeah, right). Again, thank you. I love each and every one of you (:

Next entry, birthday part 2!

2009-02-25T14:46:00.000+08:00

It won't matter how many times you say "I'm sorry", the wound is still there.
A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

2009-02-20T01:42:00.004+08:00

Kakak's Birthday

After 3 days of papers, back-to-back, its finally over! I can officially burn all my manuals! (:

I didn't had the motivation to study for Sociology. Cuz' people like Nasyitah can go hip hip hooray and I'm still studying for another paper. Grrrr! Nevertheless, I forced myself to do so or I will be seeing Trina for another semester. On the day of the paper, Fatin and I were prepared to fail the paper. We could not store any more info into our cerebrum. Maybe its due to exhaustion. 3 days straight of paper and the content of each module.. Hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu.

2009-02-17T17:04:00.001+08:00

Biology paper wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. SAQs questions were give away questions. Psychology was a manageable one. Whatever Lim pointed out, came out in the paper. Thanks to Hassan for the tips (: Insya Allah, I'll be able to pass. Amin.

Persevere, Syiqin. 1 more paper to go.

2009-02-14T20:48:00.001+08:00

I didn't managed to study earlier today. Spent the whole day at Abang Khairul's engagement ceremony. It was a hoo-ha to my paternal side as this is their first grandson/niece/cousin getting engaged. Alhamdulillah, the whole ceremony went smoothly. (Will upload the photos when exams are over.)

The one thing that despise me about this events is that they will start pint pointing whose next. And when it comes to me..

Alah. Iqin kahwin dengan doctor sudah. Doctor dengan nurse baru padan.

If only. Haha!

Called Didi up and he was asking me what I want for my birthday. The things I want is like $92235937835719841. So the stuffs which I told him was more to what I NEED than what I WANT. Hahaha! So he eventually gave up and gave me a few makan places to choose from. Only fooooood can make me happy (: Heh.

Didi: So which one you want to go? You must choose one.
Me: K. I choose 1, 2 and Secret Recipe.
Didi: Eh, orang cakap pilih satu jer kan?
Me: *laughs*
Didi: So which one? Choose one ajer tau!
Me: I choose 1, 2 and Secret Recipe!
Didi: !@#$%&

Macam tak reti bahasa eh budak ni? I knooowwww. Hahahaha.

K back to bio.

2009-02-12T23:30:00.003+08:00

1088 wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. It was a manageable paper considering it was 70 MCQs and 2 SAQs. Alhamdulillah (:

So the next few papers will be Biology, Developmental Psyche and Sociology. Heard rumors that Biology paper is freaking tough. Better be prepared for it. As for Developmental Psyche and Sociology, I'm afraid if I'll messed up the theories and apply Psyche theories to Sociology or otherwise.

I better not stress myself up.

On a brighter note, I had a date with Cookie Monster (:

He gave me a hug tau. Jealous, Didi?

2009-02-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

T minus 1330 hrs.

I'm not sure if I'm prepared to sit for 1088 tomorrow. Studying for 1088 is like studying for biology except I find biology much easier to understand. I cannot understand lectures on care of the child with altered health status. That whole bunch of lectures comprises almost 50% of the entire module.

I think I'm ~~screwed~~. *gulps*

2009-02-11T00:31:00.002+08:00

Semestral exams will commence tomorrow till next week. Thus, sorry for the lack of updates.

Talk soon after exams, toads (:

2009-02-06T23:08:00.005+08:00

We were having an issue over age.

I was writing down the family particulars and asked Ayah about Ibu's age.

Ayah: Ibu umur 52 or 53..
Me: Ayah umur brape?
Ayah: 55 this year.
Me: So Ibu 53 this year uh.
Ibu: Eh? Maner ader! Ibu 51! Ibu tahun 56.

*silence*

Ayah & Me: Betul ah 53!
Ibu: Eh?
Me: A'ah lah. Step forever 51 jerr..
Ibu: *laughs*

We were flipping through the family photo album. I know that photo albums may sounds ancient especially if you heard of anyone printing photos. Now advance already mahh. Can upload in photobucket or burn into CD, right? Still, I find photo albums the best. Though they take up space and may be a bit costly, its easier for you to browse through. Just take and see. Don't need to log in account and wait for the page to load or switch on the DVD player and place the CD and all that crap. I realised that my face changes through time. But not like Benjamin Button ahh.

Out of the blue, Ibu suddenly remembered that I'm turning 18 this year. And her advice..

Qin. Kau takmo kahwin siang-siang.

...

Ummmm. Okaaayyyy. Announcement toooooo early for me. But, okaayyyyy will take your advice. The best part, Ayah still can support.

Kahwin umur 27 atau 28 boleh pe?

...

Again, ummmmmmm. Okaaaayyyyy.

2009-02-05T20:59:00.006+08:00

First and foremost, a very very verrrryyyy special thanks to Faten Nasyitah (:

Thank you for spending your Thursday mornings with me.
Thank you for all the advices and tips.
Thank you for being my model for HA.
Lastly, I'm sorry if you had to sacrifice your beauty sleep.

Once again, THANK YOU! (:

I was switching channels and got stuck on Channel 5. Apparently, Mr. Bean was on (not the animated one). I remembered how I love to watch the show even to the extend of buying his movies like Bean the Movie and Me, Myself and Irene. Now, I realized how stupid his acts are. His acts resembles some of Singaporeans common personality for example, kiasu-ism and egocentric. I hate the opening credits of the show where they will show an empty road and suddenly out of nowhere, he fell flat to the ground. Truth was, I didn't hate it. I was scared of it. Merepek kan? I think its the background sound that makes it creepy. Anyhoot, Ibu changed the channel as soon as she got hold of the remote and commented that it’s a stupid show. Ok, I get it.

Apparently, this will be the last week of Year 1. Fast, hurh? It will also be my last week of being in Sub Group 2. Thank you Nnesah, Jacqueline, Fatin Azrin, Hassan and John for being such wonderful group mates. I'm sure gonna miss the times we spent on doing presentations. The laughters, the jokes and the never ending photography sessions.

I will definitely miss this :(

2009-02-03T21:09:00.005+08:00

Nnesah's 18 Birthday @ Manhattan Fish Market

First and most importantly, the birthday girl herself!

The foooooood was niiiicccceeeeeee! Should go and try it (:

Look at Jacqueline's face? *laughs*

My camera is giving me problems. Time to search for a new one!

I was soooo full that I got sleepy and had to rest my head on Fatin's shoulder, something which I always do during lecture. Jealous, Didi? :p

Nnesah force feed everyone with her tiramisu. And her reason..

The next time you walk past Fish Manhattan then you'll remember,
"Ahhhhh! Once upon a time, I used to eat here and Nnesah fed me tiramisu".

-____________________________________________-"

Overall, we hope you enjoyed your surprised birthday treat! I know we are bad at lying lahh. Jacq's wedding lah, Wednesday cannot must change to Thursday lah and yada yada yada. Remember, Jacq, Fatin and I will be aunts in 6 years time!

Thursday Night @ CBTL Holland Village

I swear I thought she's Fatinn Azrin! *laughs*

Outing with Ismail's family

Makan muker maintain uhh. *laughs*

Sempat masok frame!

Aku pun tak tau angin pus-pus maner dah sampok dier but Didi treated everyone to Coffebean since he had 20% staff discounts.

Explaining which drink is which. Macam pahaaammmm.

Forever posing for camera. *smacks head*

I need to get back to my revision. Talk soon toads (:

2009-01-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

Sorry toads. I'm currently occupied preparing myself for the upcoming semestral exams which is in 2 weeks time.

Talk soon, toads.

2009-01-28T16:17:00.006+08:00

Hello earthlings (:

Today, I wanna cover on 3 things.

Firstly if you guys have notice, my blog is no longer private for viewing. Whatever to people's opinion, judgement, etc. It's YOUR problem. Not MY problem, hokayy? If you gundus don't know; a blog is an online diary, a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a Web page. Thus, the owner has the rights to blog about anything he or she wants. Because I don't care anymoorrreee.

Second point. I had a 8am Developmental Psychology tutorial. I have problem waking up in the morning lahh. I will end up snoozing the alarm and eventually wake up 30 minutes after the expected time which I'm supposed to wake up. *smacks forehead* So now, I have to set my alarm 30 minutes before the expected time which I'm suppose to wake up but I think it doesn't help lorr. Right, F4? Sorry eh if I'm always late. My body and my brain got issues ahh with each other. Kehnot coordinate uhh.

I kesian kan that Lim Choo Beng. He had to wait for 10 minutes for the rest of the gundus to come when he actually came on time (that include US hokay!). So he was going through the slides to pick out the points which will come out for exams. Finally, he came to the last lecture; death and dying.

Lim: for lecture 18, study criteria of death..
Me: *turns to Nnesah* want to die also must meet criteria ah?
Nnesah: *slaps my arm*

Like .. Ajal maut di tangan tuhan perr. Haiyoyo. Merepek kerepek uhh this module.

Thirdly. We tried out the Malay stall at Koufu. We rarely ate from that stall since the food is quite expensive and limited. After we ordered our food, Fatin and I got a shock from the owner.

Owner: korang budak baru eh?
Fatin: takde lah.
Owner: abeh asal tak pernah nampak muker?
Me: jarang makan kat sini uh.
Owner: abeh makan kat maner?
Fatin: north canteen atau mac.
Owner: oh. cik dah nak kat 9 bulan kat sini..

…

your problem hokay!

2009-01-27T10:43:00.002+08:00

This morning, I woke up with 3 messages from 3 beautiful people.

From: Cik Sandy
My dear, tomorrow tuition what time? 1pm or early? Please reply. Thank you.

To: Cik Sandy
Tuition will be at 2pm today. Individual, not combined (:

Kk. Let me explain the "individual, not combined" part. So usually I'll teach Amirun and Anggun concurrently. And.. It was a WRONG MOVE! They ended up singing Poyo Poyo song lah, talk about Hannah Montana lah, kicking each other legs lah. Don't know what pleasure they find in bullying each other. Waaahhhh! Keeehhhhnooooottt maaaannnn.

From: Didi
Org dhh kluar umah. Thk u for waking me up. Btw, happy 1 year 8 months. Love u so much.

To: Didi
It's 1 year 7 months lah! Hahaa! U always mixed up da numbers lah. C u later aight. Luv u.

I think his Maths fail uhh. One time he wanted to wish "Happy 365 days," he ended up wish "Happy 364 days". Hahahaaa!

From: Faten
Beb, soie ganggu u early morn. I cannot sleep after I pray sa. Teringat Qin pulak. How u beb? Ur tat ting ok already not?

To: Faten
Morning Kak 10! My left foot swollen sehh! Hahaa! P now dah ok ahh. 10 ok tk? Dh start blajar 2 exams?

I was surprised that she texted me sooo early in the morning, asking about my condition. It was sweeet of her laarrrr. Thanks babe for asking (:

I'd like to believe that I live a purpose-driven life.

2009-01-25T09:54:00.003+08:00

Thank you to those who came down and supported me. And I’m sorry if I was too busy with the team that I neglected any of you. Still, I appreciate your effort for sacrificing some of your time to come down to this rather small event. Thank you (:

Thanks to Didi for being my personal first aider. I know how worried you are and how you want me to perform at the best of my ability. I’m sorry for my wrong doings. I know I have hurt you numerous times. Yes, I know I’m not a good listener and to make it worst, I’m as stubborn as hell. Yet you persisted with my crappy behaviour. I don’t know the reason for my behaviour. Nevertheless, I will try to change it. Cuz’ there’s no point perfecting others if you aren’t perfect yourself.

Thanks to Hanani for comforting me. You're the only one who has been with me through my ups and downs.

Thanks to Rad, Aisyah, Dina and Hakkim for those encouragement and support.

A surprise thanks to Isa. Never had it cross my mind before that you would be at the sidelines, giving me advice and wiping my sweat. Haaaaa!

To Haikal and Acapan, thanks for cheering me up with your nonsensical jokes. Woof! Meow!

And lastly to 10, for being there for me throughout the event.

I learnt lots of things from yesterday.

I should listen more.
I should stop being stubborn.
I should train my techiniques and stamina.
~~I wanna join a perguruan.~~

2009-01-20T19:48:00.006+08:00

"I AM VERY ANGRY!".

I feel for you, John. you're not the only one suffering.

I was in the LRT, going home from tuition, cursing myself at the same time. Why did I sat my butt down for a 2 hour Rush Hour 3 movie when there's much more things in the world which I could do? Like practicing for my health assessment for instance?

I already felt bad enough that I was wasting my time and as stupid as I can get, I forgot that it was peak hours. When I arrived at Choa Chu Kang LRT, there was a large crowd as if Rihanna came to take the LRT for the first time or something. Mind you, you could not even see the entrance to the lift lor! Aper lagi tangga nak gi MRT kan? Luckily I'm not as small as Kecik or I would be squashed by the stampede of humans rushing to the train. Heh.

So my instincts were telling me that the train to Yew Tee will be arriving soon. I don't know lah where that instincts came from. But apparently, they were right! So I rushed up the staircase to the MRT platform but were pushed back down by the stampede of passengers rushing to the LRT. Dah naik susah beh kenek tolak balek bawah. Tak bingit? Bingit kaaaannnnn!

So I pushed my way through and finally got to the top of the staircase. Now, I had to rush to the door! And as soon as I my face was in front of the open door..

it closed on ME! *GASP!*

My earphones was on so I didn't heard the door's closing sound. The people in the train like didn't do anything but just stare at me rushing to the train as if it was some thrill movie. Maybe they were thinking like this at the point of time..

Eh, you think she can make? I think so. Eh, wait. Ohh! She didn't make it!

Maybe Singaporeans find pleasure seeing other people suffer. These people don't know how to help one another ah? Atleast hold up the door laaaaaa.

This afternoon when I was taking the train to meet Didi, Fatin was awed to see the new refurbished train with the train map and the lights on it. The lights helps to indicate where you are and where the train will be heading to. So beside the legend, there was 2 boxes. One said,"THIS SIDE" and the other,"OTHER SIDE". Obvious right?!

Fatin: Why they go and put up this kind of signs?
Me: You know if you alight at City Hall and the train door opens on the other side, people might just be standing and waiting for the door to be open when it already is. And when they look up, wondering why the door isn't open and see the sign,"Oh! It's on the OTHER SIDE!".

I think Singaporeans are too darn pampered or stupid loorrr. That includes me, you and YOU!

PS: You wait. You wait there. You waaaiiiiittttt.

2009-01-18T13:19:00.002+08:00

Saturday morning has never been the same. We had a shift in the training ground temporarily as there was an event going on at Block E. Training was held at the sports hall. And I tell you, the atmosphere and our spirits, complete change.

We ran from one corner of the court to the other in a straight line, as if it was national training. We cheered and laughed while running, trying to push ourselves and endure the killing shuttle run and warm-ups.

NYP vs TP (not traffic police laaaahhhhh) next Saturday. Heard from Ten and Acap that I'm in. Baaaaiiiiikkkk kaaaappppeeeeerrrr. Trained for the upcoming friendly as if it is IVP. Its been a loooooonnnnnggggg time since we have such intensive trainings.

If you guys remember, I always bring home a gift. So what's the outcome of the training? Haaaaaaaaaaaa. Both my shins are swollen! And Kakak did not showed any empathy when I showed her my two swollen, tennis ball sized, shin. Instead..

Me: Eh, aku nak tunjok kau bende. *pulls pants up*
Kakak: Ape lagi pulak ni? Dah lepas satu, satu!

I was expecting some sympathy but instead, I got a stern warning from her not to injure myself anymore. K fiiiiinnnnnnneeeeeee.

Cinta Melissa came over yesterday night. She told Ayah that she wanted to see the doll house which she used to play not toooooo long ago. Ayah searched high and low but still couldn't find it. And that stubborn girl STILL doesn't believe that she used to play a doll house till she sees that doll house with her own eyes!

So with 2 limping leg and a pair of perfectly fine ones, Kakak and I ransacked the whole store and found not only the doll house but our old Barbie dolls. So we showed her both and in the end, chose the Barbie dolls over the doll house.

She was sitting in the center of the TV area and by the time she's done arranging the hall, dining room, kitchen and study room, the toys was covering her 360 degrees! So the evil in me made her turn 180 degrees. The outcome? She knock down the fridge and breathe a heeeaaavvvvyyy sigh,

"Haaaaaaaiiiiiiiyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaa!".

2009-01-16T19:54:00.002+08:00

Didi's 18th Birthday
11 January 2009

Photobucket is giving me problems. Will upload the photos soon, earthlings.

2009-01-15T18:43:00.001+08:00

Shoooooooooooooooooooooooo! Shooooo fly shooo!

It's been 2 years since I last saw you. Now is totally not a goooood time for you to be appearing back in my life. Can you come back when I'm 50 or something? And whhhhhyyyyyy the hell did I bumped into you when my birthday is coming. Pfffftttt! My 16th birthday was like fcuk. Please don't fcuk up my 18th too. This is the reason whhhhyyyyyyy I don't like celebrating my birthday.

Go awwwaaayyyyyyy laahhhhhhh!

2009-01-14T23:17:00.001+08:00

Heeelllooooooo earthlings (:

How's school? Busy and pack as always with presentations and test. Need to finish up on a video for presentation and study for a practical test next week. After which, busy doing a 1000 word essay and lastly, final year examinations. Oh God. Time flies sooooo fast. Felt as if it was just yesterday that I went into that freaking coooollllldddd and looooonnnnnnnggg hall. Just a few more months and 'Hello Year 2's!'. Hanani officially starts school next week. Haaaaaaaa! Padan muker! Enjoy lah bangun pagi-pagi ehhhhh.

NYP Silat will be having a friendly match against TP next Saturday. So yeeeerrrrpppp. We are busy preparing ourselves. Training is getting tougher. Thought that I won't be involve since I don't have a class but apparently, my instinct were wrong. My weight barely kissed 45kg. Hello Class A! -____________-"

So not looking forward to it. Still, I'll give it my best shot. Who knows? It will be a good first experience. Ohhhhh. 10 dengan penuh confident thought she doesn't have a class. Haha! Tooo baaaaddddd! Join the Class A clan (:

Didi has been busy doing his stuffs. Plus, his prepaid is low. So we have not been contacting each other sooooo often. This gives me a gooooood chance to study and prepare myself for presentations, test and exams. Still, I miss my baby lahhhhh.

K. I need to edit the video. Nite nite manusia (:

2009-01-13T00:15:00.002+08:00

Stayed up till midnight just to book the discussion room. Giler kan? Still, I managed to book it this time. Alhamdulillah. Hopefully, we'll be able to complete the shooting by tomorrow, Insya Allah.

Tuition officially resumes starting tomorrow. Schedule will be packed again. Tuition on Tuesdays' and Thursdays', training on Wednesdays' and Saturdays', leaving me Monday, Friday and Sunday for my own spare time. Got myself a diary, thinking that it would maybe help me to sort out my life and get it organised. Heh.

Turning 18. Something great, isn't it? Able to take license, buy ciggies, go clubbing, watch M18 movies. Yeeeeaaaahhhhh. Those stuffs. Among the above, I'm only looking forward to take my license. I targeted to get it before the year ends, Insya Allah.

Since Ayah has offered to pay for my license, I figured I shouldn't asked anything for my birthday. Sooooooo.. I'm trying to save up to buy myself a Sony Cyber-shot W170 or a C905. Who in the damn world buy a birthday gif for themselves? Aku laaaaaaaaaa.

Why? Past experiences of my birthdays has been like shit. So yeeeeaaaaahhhhh. I'm not giving myself false hope or expecting anything this time round and onwards. I think, most importantly, I should be thankful that God gave me another day to wake up and cherish the people around me (:

I'm not mad. Just disappointed.

2009-01-12T00:23:00.002+08:00

12.18AM - I'm still wide awake, studying biology.

Am I prepared for it? Nope. Not one bit.

Have I studied? Yes but I don’t think its enough.

Why? Cuz I assessed myself and I failed.

So what did I do? I resort to blogging.

Why? Because I'm afraid and I need to let it out.

And what am I afraid of? Failing.

Why here? Cuz' Didi's asleep. And he's afraid too.

What is he afraid of? O levels results tomorrow.

Silat performance went well. Didi's 18th birthday too. Had loads of surprises for him. I'll upload the photos to blog/friendster when the ride's over aight? Now, I have to surpass another obstacle. And this time, its going 60 feet high and plunging at 10 feet per second.

Outcome? I'm dead.

2009-01-06T00:42:00.002+08:00

Stupid CMS. Can't open a bloody file! Daaaammmmnnn yoooouuuuu!

The ride's starting. Adrenaline's pumping. Stress level increasing.

Ahhhhhhhhhh! Feel it?

Soooooooooo.. Had training today. And I was sooooo deng to come in full uni. I was called "Jepun" and "Abby" for some reason. Grrrrrrrr! Anyhoooooooot, I manage to use every second of training brushing up. Alhamdulillah. I managed to survive the parang crash course.

Yeeeeaaaaahhhhh. Seems like I would always bring home a gift after training. First was the abrasion on my right ankle, followed by abrasion on both my elbow, last Saturday was lebam at my right knee and now, a cut on my right foot. And almost everything is on the ride side? I think my right side cock up.

The song is driving the whole team nuts!

I want nobody nobody but you! *clap clap*

2009-01-04T15:00:00.007+08:00

WARNING! Image heavy!

Clinical skills test tomorrow. Not sure if I'm prepared for it. Let's just hope for the best. Hopefully, I'll pass. Insya Allah. The following week shall be my Biology practical, which I haven't started studying. Ahhhhhhhh! Never mind. I shall after skills test tomorrow. Ooohhhhh! And there's Health Assessment practice test the week after Biology. And on the same week of Biology, I have a Communication & Customer Service presentation.

Sounds stressful doesn't it?

Wait. I'm not done yet. Next Saturday, silat has to perform for NYP Open House. Do come down and watch our performance next Saturday, 10 January 2009 at 3pm! It will be held at the atrium just outside the auditorium! There will be training next week from Monday to Friday. The following day after performance is Didi's birthday. I have yet to buy his birthday gift. Ahhhhhhh!

Feel the pressure? I'm feeling it. As always said by Nunu,

"Fuuuuuuuiiiiiii!".

MCG Production with NYP Silat

2009-01-01T14:25:00.004+08:00

It's funny how you go through the year and nothing seems to change. But when you look back, everything's different. Hello 2009 (:

Hearing those words. Time suddenly stops. It got me thinking. Am I one of the victim? Am I suffering from the same thing? I kept pushing it away from my mind. But I can't. The truth was staring at me.

Should I stay or should I go? Should I continue and let myself suffer? Should I reveal the truth or keep it to myself and see what happen?

No clue what the hell am I talking about?

Heh. Tu lah.. Lain kali tengok TV, deng! Haaaaaaaa. Fikir lah sampai tua.

Don't we humans wish that this happens? In your dreams, toads.

2008-12-31T17:44:00.004+08:00

Currently slacking at Kakak's work place. Urrrgggghhhh. Loooootttsss of people sia. New Year's Eve cannot stay home and besarkan pantat for just one day eh? I think your pantat itchy uh. Maybe that explains why. Heh.

Went out with Ibu and Ayah to change the set top box. Yeeeeeeesssssssaaaaaaaaa! Now my normal cable TV has change to HubStation! Now Ibu and I can watch VOD, k Bu? (: I hesitated at first since there will be an additional top-up of $6. If Ayah just upgrade to the digital set-top box, he will just add another $2. But he was trying to convince me to take the HubStation instead. Heeeeelllllloooooo! I'm not paying for it! If I am, I would have cancelled the sports channels and add the kids channel instead. Hah!

So after much thinking, suddenly it struck me. The reason why Ayah wants HubStation is because..

.. Because he can record his football match since he will miss it as he is away at work. Haaaaaaaa. And when the truth was revealed, he tries to cover up. Tak nak mengaku ni! Issssshhhhh! Geeeerrrraaaam nyyyyeeeerrr! Nevermind. As long as he's paying for my VOD. Hah.

Had lunch at City Hall. Haaaiiiiizzzz. Our lunch was pathetic. Sooooo not gonna eat there anymore. Walked around and found a better place. Should have eaten there instead. Nyeeeeh. Toooo late. Food has gone down the epiglottis and into the stomach and out the anus. Maybe the puuuut puuuuut not yet uh. Unless you are taking lactulose. Anyhoooooot, took the bus and here I am! Taaaadaaaaa!

My battery is running low low low. Tempat besar tapi satu haram power point pun takde. Kentalan di jiwa betul!

Hmmmm. Maybe I'll post again at Didi's workplace.

6 hours till 2009. What's the big deal about 2009? Awal Muharram tak nak sambut. Haaaaiiiiizzzzzz.

2008-12-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

My English is becoming more corrupted as days passed. Hmm. Maybe I should enroll myself into an English class. Probably take up English as an elective next semester. Up for it F4? Haaaaaaaa.

A classic example happened today while the F4's were walking to clinical.

Nnesah: Eh, take the stairs!
Me: Nooooo! Take the froner one! (Take the one in front!)
Nnesah: Wah! Your English power sia!
Me: *senyum-senyum kambing*

K.. My English sucks. Yeah. I admit that. Atleast you guys understood the crap that's coming out from my mouth kan kan kaaaaaaan?

So after clinical, had a short discussion (Thanks eh Hassan for not turning up! Baik ah!) and off to Queensway in search for a new water bottle. I finally got my training water bottle at a bargain of $14. Cheap considering that original price is $15.90. Can't go lower than that since it’s a new arrival.

Surveyed around for my running shoes. Saw alooooot of adizero shoes which I like but most of them are for men. Grrrrrr! Anyhooot, lots of shops are having sale for Nike and Adidas shoes. Soooo.. I asked that boy of mine if he would be kind enough to buy me a running shoe for my birthday.

Me: Eh, u belikan untuk orang uh for my birthday?
Didi: Boleh uh. Orang bayar stengah beh you pay the rest. *senyum kambing*
Me: Baik tak yah seh. Birthday gift aper klau kenek bayar stengah?

So it seems like my hopes were crushed. Ever heard of this myth that if you were to give someone a pair of shoe/slipper/sandals (any footwear), that person will most likely walk out of your life? Sounds crap right? But it kinda happened to me. Didi and I gave each other a pair of Brazillian Praia but I guess the myth didn't work. Maybe its related to some mathematics equation like how positive multiply by negative will give you negative and when positive multiply by positive will give you positive. Haaaaaa. Merepek kerepek.

Ehhhh.. First time sia I talked this much eh? Ohhh. While I was blogging, Ibu was switching channels and was watching this Indonesian horror movie. Imagine people thought you are dead but you aren't. And you only wake up when you are already 6 feet under? Creeeeeepy.

Kk. I'm afraid of the clinical test! Ahhhh. And I still haven't study sia! Tunggu aper Syiqin? Christmas dah over. Tunggu raya pe baru nak blajar?

2008-12-29T10:26:00.002+08:00

The final days of holidays was well spent at home. Thought of going out with Didi but Ibu insisted that we chilled at home instead. I showed him my two hideous abrasion on my elbow and his immediate reaction was emotionless. He just gave me the puzzle look and said, "Macam maner u jatuh?" and burst into laughters. Grrrrrrr!

So there was a short gifts exchanging sessions. Haaaaaaaaa. No. He bought for Ibu and I some souvenirs. Cheeeeeet! And I think the only reason he bought me another sweater is because my Topman sweater is always with Aza. Grrrrr! And the previous one that he bought for me is now worn by aloooooooot of mats and minahs. Thank you for that one of a kind sweater (:

Had lunch together and Ibu revealed to Didi how I would slipped and fall down without fail, every time when she's mopping the floor. Maybe its due to all the kangkongs which I loooooooovvvvvvvveeeee to eat. Watched some crappy Malay movie and off we went rollerblading around the neighborhood.

I had no injuries when rollerblading though. After watching me rollerblade, Didi felt like going ice skating. Haaaaaa! Dulu ajak tak nak. Hmph.

K. I have to get ready for school. Lemau sey..

2008-12-28T11:52:00.002+08:00

Some changes have been done to the layout. Tried to make it as simple as I could. Wanna comment? Click on the word "comment" beside the date. Its available on every post aight. Decided not to put up a profile cuz' I'm sure you know who's writing this crap right? If you don't know, go knock your head against the wall. Maybe you have a temporary amnesia.

School officially re-opens tomorrow. Ibu, dengan penuh confident, asked me to go bowling with her tomorrow. And when I told her that school starts tomorrow, she doesn't believe me. She mati-mati thought mine starts on Friday. Helllloooooo!

There's a few things I've been wanting to get. Like a new water bottle. I think mine is leaking. Need to find a running shoe cuz' the sole of my current one is gaping like a crocodile's mouth. And ...

... Need to find SHOES! Ahhhhhh. I hate finding shoes. Why? Cuz' most shops in Singapore doesn't sell much of size 9 shoes! Yes. Nnesah and I are suffering from this great shoe depression. If my career as a nurse doesn't work out, maybe I should go ahead with Nnesah's suggestion of becoming a shoe designer. Only for size 9 and above (: Hah! In your face small feet people!

I hate morning sinus. Its irritating the crap out of me.

2008-12-27T21:46:00.005+08:00

I decided to privatised my blog. I tend to hesitate whenever I blog when it was public. My blog is a place for me to say what I please right? I don't wish some kepo people to stick their nose in my life. Naaaaah. I'm not an attention seeker. Not like ~~Paula~~ at least. Hah. Actually, I prefer to keep my life in low-profile. Doesn't seems like Nur Asyiqn, right? Heh.

Today's training was ... It wasn't as strenuous as Wednesday's. Some things change. I was surprised to see her in it. I mean, out of all the people? Who would have thought that she would go ahead and wear it? I'm glad you did it though. Hopefully, it was a sincere thing aight.

Nevertheless, I had a conversation with Ibu. I asked her, what if I go ahead and wear it? She doesn't disallow me but she just discourages. She says that my teenage life is for me to enjoy. I'm still too young and its still too early for me to commit. Furthermore even if I did wear it and I don't do the right things, what's the point? I agreed with her. For now, it's better that I concentrate on other wajib* stuffs. Yes, that's also wajib* but what's the point if you wear and you don't perform simple things like praying 5 times daily, right?

* necesssary and sinful if you do not do it.

Ohhhhh. I injured both my elbows. Noooooo. Nothing serious. Just abrasions. Now my elbow looks fugly. Shit.

Didi's coming home tonight. Whoopteeedoooo. He though of meeting tomorrow before school starts. And when I told Ibu the plan, she told Didi to come over instead. Takot ehhhhh kat rumah sorang? Muahahahahaha!

Till next time, toads.

2008-12-26T18:38:00.001+08:00

Finally done with essay. I think my laptop is crying for mercy to take a break. Heh.

Woke up bright and early and headed down to HomeTeamNS for a round (3 rounds actually) of bowling. Cinta had her chance too. Everytime her ball ends up in the gutter, she would end up blaming the ball saying "Silly ball." dengan action tangan and muker dier. Imagine a 3 years old kid trying to lift a 6 pound ball? Cinta did. But it lasted less than 10 seconds. Hah. I didn't made her do it hokay! She did it on her on free will. Heh.

And on my own free will, I played parapara paradise with her at her crib yesterday. Surprisingly, quite a good workout (: Go on and try it. If you're a first timer and you're playing at the arcade, thank you for making such a bafoon out of yourself.

2008-12-23T10:50:00.001+08:00

Catchy beat. I like (: Thanks "Ira"! Hah. Love you babe. See you Wednesday aight.

Essay. It's not even 50% complete. I'm having trouble on how to tackle the essay. How to present it so that the essay will flow like how my runny nose is flowing. Heh. Dear God, please help me. I need a miracle to get this essay done. Tell me how do I bullshit a 1500 word essay?

Urgh. I'm sick and tired of extensions. My extensions keep on falling out. Maybe cuz' its only one clip. Should do at Kakak's place. Double clipping. Hmmm. Should I got for extensions again or just highlight my hair? Weighing both options, highlights will make my life easier when I'm combing my hair. But like .. Extensions is temporary but its nicer cuz's in strands. Both cost about the same depending on how much extensions you wanna put. Hmmm.

A new phone? Yes! I desperately soooooooo need one. My current phone keeps restarting itself for no apparent reason and its damn irritating when you wanna make an important call or text. Its more irritating when people blame you for suddenly hanging up or worst, didn't pick up the call at all. Eh, not my fault k?

He does nothing. The boy does nothing.

Ohhhh. That boy of mine will be away in KL on eve of Christmas(which is TOMORROW!). Booohooo. Buy me some souvenirs aight. Plans on eve of Christmas is still tentative. Might be having steamboat cum BBQ at home with the family or rot and complete the pending video. May also be hitting the pool and gym with the guys.

Cute, isn't it?

Till next time, toads.

2008-12-22T19:54:00.001+08:00

Let's not talk about the essay aight? Its squeezing every drop of brain juice from me.

After not playing bowling for such a loooooooooong time, I finally got myself back in the game. Scoring 120, 123 was not my usual record. Attaining spare and strike back to back wasn't either. But it happened. Hah. And it was reaaaally fun especially with the crazy people around.

So I managed to dragged myself out of bed and ran from Brickland Road to Bukit Gombak MRT. Gotta discipline myself and increase my stamina. Managed to catch YES Man. It was a goooooooood movie. You guys should watch it.

I should get back to my essay. I still have a pending presentation in que.

Hope you're feeling better, my dearest Kecik! See you soon aight?

2008-12-20T23:50:00.001+08:00

Well, I don't like, living under your spotlight.
Just because you think, I might find somebody worthy.
Oh, I don't like, living under your spotlight.
Maybe, if you treat me right, you won't have to worry.

2008-12-18T19:34:00.003+08:00

Hello toads.

Truth; I haven't started on law and ethics essay and I have only about a week left of holidays. I think I'm screwed. My mind doesn't seems to coordinate well. It’s as if it knows that it’s the holidays and its on sleep mode. Nevertheless, I should get on it one of these days or else I'll be really screwed. My whole entire module relies on this essay (despite that there's presentation)! Every time when I'm on the laptop, I'll end up doing something else. For example today, I checked out the Bachelor of Science (Nursing) at NUS. Admission is based on polytechnic and GCE O levels results; weighing 80% and 20% respectively. You even need O levels results to go uni hokay.

The afternoon was well spent at home with the company of the lovely family. Heh. First it started out by me watching Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham online. Kakak and Ibu joined in soon after followed by Ayah. Eventually the whole family was squeezing in front of the laptop. They are soo cute lah. And my stomach is giving me problems these past few days. Maybe its due to the excessive seaweed which I have been consuming every single day. Heh. But it's soooo addictive! Kk. I shall not tempt myself.

Yesterday's training was alright considering that it wasn't sooo much on physical. Hmm. Looking at the situation right now, there is a high chance. But I shall not give myself hope. I still need a lot of practice and a lot of brushing up.

Till next time.

2008-12-16T13:07:00.001+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday, Fatin Hanani Ahmad Hambali.
Hope you enjoyed yourself on your birthday.
May Allah bless you always makcik!

2008-12-11T18:43:00.001+08:00

I wish I could find a place where I could let everything out. No need for pretence.

2008-12-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

My blog hits not bad eh? Ramai jugak orang bacer blog aku ruper nyer. Hmm. I sound like an ah ma. Heh.

Today was pathetic. Only school. The rest, no. Went on a 30 minutes journey (to school), went for an hour of tutorial, bought breakfast (thinking that I'll be starving by the time lecture starts), tutor came in saying that lecture's cancelled. Para pundek. Pfft.

I have an 8am lesson again tomorrow. And if it's not for them, I could have gone home early at 12pm. Urgh. Bloody idiot.

2008-12-09T17:55:00.004+08:00

Today was so slack.

Had breakfast in the morning with Didi at Lot 1 McD. Should have eaten McD in school instead. So much cheaper. Pfft. But it's okay. Atleast I get to try McGriddles! Its so filling. Didi made his own version of McGriddles by using two pancakes and a sausage. He precisely cut the pancake into a bun-shaped so that it will look like a McGriddles. Should have taken the photo of the ring-shaped pancake. ~~It looks like saggy breasts.~~ Hah.

Reached school, waited for the girls and off to tutorial. Nnesah said that I was bitchy today. Had 1 hour break so went to the library. Eventually, Jacqueline and I went out of the library with atleast 4 books. Step rajin. Heh.

And so, the good news came. Today's lecture is E-learning. Aper lagi? Balik siang :D I was just happy that after a week of going home at 6, 7 and 8pm, we were finally dismissed at 2pm! By the way, school's starts at 11am. Only 2 hours of lesson! (Minus the break) Saper tak nak?

I think I DO sound bitchy today. Heh.

2008-12-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

If you have been consistently watching Suria, you realise that they have been airing Cicakman 2 trailer right? You know what my ibu said? "If there's a CicakMAN, there will also be a CicakGIRL!". Hahaha! She's soo cute!

Urgh! I have an irritating ulcer. And I think it’s causing my sudden fever and headache.

To all muslims, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha (:

2008-12-06T12:22:00.001+08:00

Finally, its over. All 3 freaking test. Alhamdulillah. I think I passed all of them. Still, I hope that I could have done better for all of them. Now, I have 2 essays to complete ,a 1000 and 1500 word essay. Gerek pe? And as soon as the term break's over, I have 2 tests and 1 presentations waiting for me.

Nnesah have been talking about new year resolutions. Maybe its time to think of them and actually do them this time round. Hmm.

2008-12-04T20:38:00.002+08:00

Speechless.

Thanks girls for everything (:
I love each and every one of you.

2008-12-03T20:36:00.003+08:00

Sorry if all my post have lately been short. Short and simple is the way to go right? Hah. Let me try to make this post a looooooooong one aight.

Two down, one more to go. I can't believe I would survive having to take 2 tests on the same day after not taking tests for such a loooong time since secondary. Woah. I still remembered having tests back to back, every day. During curriculum, AEPs. Thank god those days are loooooong gone. Heh.

Hmm. I feel that some way, some how I need to buck up on my studies. The way I'm progressing now is still not up to my expectation. Reason? Let me keep it to myself aight. There are some things in this world that is best for one NOT to know. Heh.

Nevertheless, we must always look at the bright side of life; a week till term break! And I still haven't got my dear Fatin a gift. Eh makcik, what you want for your birthday? :P

Currently at home, alone. Pathetic. Ibu and Ayah out on date. I think Kakak too. Didi? Hmm. Maybe out on date with his xxth scandal. He got too many scandals lah. I stopped counting after I found out that one of his scandals was gay. Don't know lah who taught him to have aloooooooot of scandals eh. I think the number is increasing since he started working. Heh.

And it happened again today! Did I mentioned that retribution is sweet?

Oh, I did :) And I mentioned "heh" and "loooooong" 3 times in this post. And I still find this post not loooooooooong enough.

2008-12-02T19:20:00.001+08:00

~~Revenge~~ Retribution is soo sweet.

2008-12-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

I have 3 freaking test this week.

I repeat..

I HAVE 3 FCUKING TEST THIS WEEK!

And 2 tests falls ON THE SAME DAY!

I think I can die.

Thank god we are going Popeye next week (:

2008-11-28T18:40:00.005+08:00

Been busy lately. Lots of para pundek things happened but whatever it is, we survived. Presentation is over and what's left is all the test. I have a total of 3 tests all lined up for me next week. Gerek pe?

Oh, and did I tell you? Didi got a job! Hahaha! Now, I'm just looking forward to my term break which is in 2 weeks time and also, celebrating my dear Fatin Hanani's 17th!

My attendance is 80%. Pathetic. I think I need to meet Theresa soon. And the weird thing is, one of the lecture was on 10 November which, I was absent. The other 2 lectures was sociology which Trina told me to log into SAS and write an explanation which I did. So I don't know why my attendance is 80%. Need to meet Trina before lecture on Monday and inform her. Para pundek. K.. whatever. Worst come to worst, I don't have to sit for exams. Heh.

Cinta wanna watch Winx Club The Movie and she asked me along. I think I'll end up sleeping throughout the movie. Hah.

2008-11-22T19:01:00.002+08:00

Camp was errr.. Didn't meet my expectation though. Thought of playing a game Fatin and I used to play back when we were in Sec 2. Unfortunately, for some safety reason (since the game require the use of fire), Ms. K finds the game "unsafe" for the Sec 1's. So Syu, Fatin and I were like some rotten pigs lying in the middle of the parade square, talking and yapping away. Yana was shouting in the middle of the night from the block to the parade square to borrow my comb. Heh.

Looking at how much time Kecik does her drug card, I seriously need to start doing it soon. In 2 weeks time, I have sociology test, clinical test and finally clinical assessment which I think will either be wound dressing (including surgical asepsis) or administration of medication (including drug calculation).

Now who's the idiot who claims that nursing is an easy course?

To my dearest sayang from F4,
I know that the news may be a big blow to you considering that no one expected it to happen. Nevertheless, life has to go on. Focus on much more important and serious things in life. You still have the rest of the wonderful people around you, including me. I love you babe (:

2008-11-16T21:25:00.002+08:00

Silence! I kill you!

2008-11-13T21:32:00.004+08:00

"klau bleh u tengok news later. the white tiger we saw at zoo killed someone today. haiyoo,". I received this message from Nnesah after I woke up from my afternoon nap.

No wonder Fatin was soo scared to see the white tiger.

Deep inside, I wished the tiger ate you people instead. Heh.

2008-11-11T22:04:00.002+08:00

Must I repeat myself? My clique is tighter than a virgin's pussy. Unless your pussy has already been fucked, than I suppose you don't get what I meant. Stop acting childish. What are you? 5 years old? I think a 5 year old kid behave much mature and wiser than you do. You should be ashamed of yourself.

Now I sound like an ah ma. Heh.

2008-11-08T21:05:00.004+08:00

Syiqin?
Tunggal?
IVP?
Next year?

Heh.