Sorry toads. I'm currently occupied preparing myself for the upcoming semestral exams which is in 2 weeks time.










Talk soon, toads.

Hello earthlings (:

Today, I wanna cover on 3 things.

Firstly if you guys have notice, my blog is no longer private for viewing. Whatever to people's opinion, judgement, etc. It's YOUR problem. Not MY problem, hokayy? If you gundus don't know; a blog is an online diary, a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a Web page. Thus, the owner has the rights to blog about anything he or she wants. Because I don't care anymoorrreee.


Second point. I had a 8am Developmental Psychology tutorial. I have problem waking up in the morning lahh. I will end up snoozing the alarm and eventually wake up 30 minutes after the expected time which I'm supposed to wake up. *smacks forehead* So now, I have to set my alarm 30 minutes before the expected time which I'm suppose to wake up but I think it doesn't help lorr. Right, F4? Sorry eh if I'm always late. My body and my brain got issues ahh with each other. Kehnot coordinate uhh.

I kesian kan that Lim Choo Beng. He had to wait for 10 minutes for the rest of the gundus to come when he actually came on time (that include US hokay!). So he was going through the slides to pick out the points which will come out for exams. Finally, he came to the last lecture; death and dying.

Lim: for lecture 18, study criteria of death..
Me: *turns to Nnesah* want to die also must meet criteria ah?
Nnesah: *slaps my arm*

Like .. Ajal maut di tangan tuhan perr. Haiyoyo. Merepek kerepek uhh this module.


Thirdly. We tried out the Malay stall at Koufu. We rarely ate from that stall since the food is quite expensive and limited. After we ordered our food, Fatin and I got a shock from the owner.

Owner: korang budak baru eh?
Fatin: takde lah.
Owner: abeh asal tak pernah nampak muker?
Me: jarang makan kat sini uh.
Owner: abeh makan kat maner?
Fatin: north canteen atau mac.
Owner: oh. cik dah nak kat 9 bulan kat sini..

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your problem hokay!

This morning, I woke up with 3 messages from 3 beautiful people.

From: Cik Sandy
My dear, tomorrow tuition what time? 1pm or early? Please reply. Thank you.

To: Cik Sandy
Tuition will be at 2pm today. Individual, not combined (:

Kk. Let me explain the "individual, not combined" part. So usually I'll teach Amirun and Anggun concurrently. And.. It was a WRONG MOVE! They ended up singing Poyo Poyo song lah, talk about Hannah Montana lah, kicking each other legs lah. Don't know what pleasure they find in bullying each other. Waaahhhh! Keeehhhhnooooottt maaaannnn.


From: Didi
Org dhh kluar umah. Thk u for waking me up. Btw, happy 1 year 8 months. Love u so much.

To: Didi
It's 1 year 7 months lah! Hahaa! U always mixed up da numbers lah. C u later aight. Luv u.

I think his Maths fail uhh. One time he wanted to wish "Happy 365 days," he ended up wish "Happy 364 days". Hahahaaa!


From: Faten
Beb, soie ganggu u early morn. I cannot sleep after I pray sa. Teringat Qin pulak. How u beb? Ur tat ting ok already not?

To: Faten
Morning Kak 10! My left foot swollen sehh! Hahaa! P now dah ok ahh. 10 ok tk? Dh start blajar 2 exams?

I was surprised that she texted me sooo early in the morning, asking about my condition. It was sweeet of her laarrrr. Thanks babe for asking (:



















I'd like to believe that I live a purpose-driven life.

Thank you to those who came down and supported me. And I’m sorry if I was too busy with the team that I neglected any of you. Still, I appreciate your effort for sacrificing some of your time to come down to this rather small event. Thank you (:

Thanks to Didi for being my personal first aider. I know how worried you are and how you want me to perform at the best of my ability. I’m sorry for my wrong doings. I know I have hurt you numerous times. Yes, I know I’m not a good listener and to make it worst, I’m as stubborn as hell. Yet you persisted with my crappy behaviour. I don’t know the reason for my behaviour. Nevertheless, I will try to change it. Cuz’ there’s no point perfecting others if you aren’t perfect yourself.

Thanks to Hanani for comforting me. You're the only one who has been with me through my ups and downs.

Thanks to Rad, Aisyah, Dina and Hakkim for those encouragement and support.

A surprise thanks to Isa. Never had it cross my mind before that you would be at the sidelines, giving me advice and wiping my sweat. Haaaaa!

To Haikal and Acapan, thanks for cheering me up with your nonsensical jokes. Woof! Meow!

And lastly to 10, for being there for me throughout the event.





I learnt lots of things from yesterday.

1. I should listen more.
2. I should stop being stubborn.
3. I should train my techiniques and stamina.
4. I wanna join a perguruan.

"I AM VERY ANGRY!".


I feel for you, John. you're not the only one suffering.

I was in the LRT, going home from tuition, cursing myself at the same time. Why did I sat my butt down for a 2 hour Rush Hour 3 movie when there's much more things in the world which I could do? Like practicing for my health assessment for instance?

I already felt bad enough that I was wasting my time and as stupid as I can get, I forgot that it was peak hours. When I arrived at Choa Chu Kang LRT, there was a large crowd as if Rihanna came to take the LRT for the first time or something. Mind you, you could not even see the entrance to the lift lor! Aper lagi tangga nak gi MRT kan? Luckily I'm not as small as Kecik or I would be squashed by the stampede of humans rushing to the train. Heh.

So my instincts were telling me that the train to Yew Tee will be arriving soon. I don't know lah where that instincts came from. But apparently, they were right! So I rushed up the staircase to the MRT platform but were pushed back down by the stampede of passengers rushing to the LRT. Dah naik susah beh kenek tolak balek bawah. Tak bingit? Bingit kaaaannnnn!

So I pushed my way through and finally got to the top of the staircase. Now, I had to rush to the door! And as soon as I my face was in front of the open door..








































it closed on ME! *GASP!*

My earphones was on so I didn't heard the door's closing sound. The people in the train like didn't do anything but just stare at me rushing to the train as if it was some thrill movie. Maybe they were thinking like this at the point of time..

Eh, you think she can make? I think so. Eh, wait. Ohh! She didn't make it!

Maybe Singaporeans find pleasure seeing other people suffer. These people don't know how to help one another ah? Atleast hold up the door laaaaaa.

This afternoon when I was taking the train to meet Didi, Fatin was awed to see the new refurbished train with the train map and the lights on it. The lights helps to indicate where you are and where the train will be heading to. So beside the legend, there was 2 boxes. One said,"THIS SIDE" and the other,"OTHER SIDE". Obvious right?!

Fatin: Why they go and put up this kind of signs?
Me: You know if you alight at City Hall and the train door opens on the other side, people might just be standing and waiting for the door to be open when it already is. And when they look up, wondering why the door isn't open and see the sign,"Oh! It's on the OTHER SIDE!".

I think Singaporeans are too darn pampered or stupid loorrr. That includes me, you and YOU!



















PS: You wait. You wait there. You waaaiiiiittttt.

Saturday morning has never been the same. We had a shift in the training ground temporarily as there was an event going on at Block E. Training was held at the sports hall. And I tell you, the atmosphere and our spirits, complete change.

We ran from one corner of the court to the other in a straight line, as if it was national training. We cheered and laughed while running, trying to push ourselves and endure the killing shuttle run and warm-ups.

NYP vs TP (not traffic police laaaahhhhh) next Saturday. Heard from Ten and Acap that I'm in. Baaaaiiiiikkkk kaaaappppeeeeerrrr. Trained for the upcoming friendly as if it is IVP. Its been a loooooonnnnnggggg time since we have such intensive trainings.

If you guys remember, I always bring home a gift. So what's the outcome of the training? Haaaaaaaaaaaa. Both my shins are swollen! And Kakak did not showed any empathy when I showed her my two swollen, tennis ball sized, shin. Instead..

Me: Eh, aku nak tunjok kau bende. *pulls pants up*
Kakak: Ape lagi pulak ni? Dah lepas satu, satu!

I was expecting some sympathy but instead, I got a stern warning from her not to injure myself anymore. K fiiiiinnnnnnneeeeeee.

Cinta Melissa came over yesterday night. She told Ayah that she wanted to see the doll house which she used to play not toooooo long ago. Ayah searched high and low but still couldn't find it. And that stubborn girl STILL doesn't believe that she used to play a doll house till she sees that doll house with her own eyes!

So with 2 limping leg and a pair of perfectly fine ones, Kakak and I ransacked the whole store and found not only the doll house but our old Barbie dolls. So we showed her both and in the end, chose the Barbie dolls over the doll house.

She was sitting in the center of the TV area and by the time she's done arranging the hall, dining room, kitchen and study room, the toys was covering her 360 degrees! So the evil in me made her turn 180 degrees. The outcome? She knock down the fridge and breathe a heeeaaavvvvyyy sigh,

"Haaaaaaaiiiiiiiyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaa!".

Didi's 18th Birthday
11 January 2009










Photobucket is giving me problems. Will upload the photos soon, earthlings.

Shoooooooooooooooooooooooo! Shooooo fly shooo!

It's been 2 years since I last saw you. Now is totally not a goooood time for you to be appearing back in my life. Can you come back when I'm 50 or something? And whhhhhyyyyyy the hell did I bumped into you when my birthday is coming. Pfffftttt! My 16th birthday was like fcuk. Please don't fcuk up my 18th too. This is the reason whhhhyyyyyyy I don't like celebrating my birthday.





Go awwwaaayyyyyyy laahhhhhhh!

Heeelllooooooo earthlings (:

How's school? Busy and pack as always with presentations and test. Need to finish up on a video for presentation and study for a practical test next week. After which, busy doing a 1000 word essay and lastly, final year examinations. Oh God. Time flies sooooo fast. Felt as if it was just yesterday that I went into that freaking coooollllldddd and looooonnnnnnnggg hall. Just a few more months and 'Hello Year 2's!'. Hanani officially starts school next week. Haaaaaaaa! Padan muker! Enjoy lah bangun pagi-pagi ehhhhh.

NYP Silat will be having a friendly match against TP next Saturday. So yeeeerrrrpppp. We are busy preparing ourselves. Training is getting tougher. Thought that I won't be involve since I don't have a class but apparently, my instinct were wrong. My weight barely kissed 45kg. Hello Class A! -____________-"

So not looking forward to it. Still, I'll give it my best shot. Who knows? It will be a good first experience. Ohhhhh. 10 dengan penuh confident thought she doesn't have a class. Haha! Tooo baaaaddddd! Join the Class A clan (:

Didi has been busy doing his stuffs. Plus, his prepaid is low. So we have not been contacting each other sooooo often. This gives me a gooooood chance to study and prepare myself for presentations, test and exams. Still, I miss my baby lahhhhh.

K. I need to edit the video. Nite nite manusia (:

Stayed up till midnight just to book the discussion room. Giler kan? Still, I managed to book it this time. Alhamdulillah. Hopefully, we'll be able to complete the shooting by tomorrow, Insya Allah.

Tuition officially resumes starting tomorrow. Schedule will be packed again. Tuition on Tuesdays' and Thursdays', training on Wednesdays' and Saturdays', leaving me Monday, Friday and Sunday for my own spare time. Got myself a diary, thinking that it would maybe help me to sort out my life and get it organised. Heh.

Turning 18. Something great, isn't it? Able to take license, buy ciggies, go clubbing, watch M18 movies. Yeeeeaaaahhhhh. Those stuffs. Among the above, I'm only looking forward to take my license. I targeted to get it before the year ends, Insya Allah.

Since Ayah has offered to pay for my license, I figured I shouldn't asked anything for my birthday. Sooooooo.. I'm trying to save up to buy myself a Sony Cyber-shot W170 or a C905. Who in the damn world buy a birthday gif for themselves? Aku laaaaaaaaaa.

Why? Past experiences of my birthdays has been like shit. So yeeeeaaaaahhhhh. I'm not giving myself false hope or expecting anything this time round and onwards. I think, most importantly, I should be thankful that God gave me another day to wake up and cherish the people around me (:







I'm not mad. Just disappointed.

12.18AM - I'm still wide awake, studying biology.



Am I prepared for it? Nope. Not one bit.

Have I studied? Yes but I don’t think its enough.

Why? Cuz I assessed myself and I failed.

So what did I do? I resort to blogging.

Why? Because I'm afraid and I need to let it out.

And what am I afraid of? Failing.

Why here? Cuz' Didi's asleep. And he's afraid too.

What is he afraid of? O levels results tomorrow.





Silat performance went well. Didi's 18th birthday too. Had loads of surprises for him. I'll upload the photos to blog/friendster when the ride's over aight? Now, I have to surpass another obstacle. And this time, its going 60 feet high and plunging at 10 feet per second.






Outcome? I'm dead.

Stupid CMS. Can't open a bloody file! Daaaammmmnnn yoooouuuuu!

The ride's starting. Adrenaline's pumping. Stress level increasing.



Ahhhhhhhhhh! Feel it?



Soooooooooo.. Had training today. And I was sooooo deng to come in full uni. I was called "Jepun" and "Abby" for some reason. Grrrrrrrr! Anyhoooooooot, I manage to use every second of training brushing up. Alhamdulillah. I managed to survive the parang crash course.

Yeeeeaaaaahhhhh. Seems like I would always bring home a gift after training. First was the abrasion on my right ankle, followed by abrasion on both my elbow, last Saturday was lebam at my right knee and now, a cut on my right foot. And almost everything is on the ride side? I think my right side cock up.

The song is driving the whole team nuts!















I want nobody nobody but you! *clap clap*

WARNING! Image heavy!

Clinical skills test tomorrow. Not sure if I'm prepared for it. Let's just hope for the best. Hopefully, I'll pass. Insya Allah. The following week shall be my Biology practical, which I haven't started studying. Ahhhhhhhh! Never mind. I shall after skills test tomorrow. Ooohhhhh! And there's Health Assessment practice test the week after Biology. And on the same week of Biology, I have a Communication & Customer Service presentation.

Sounds stressful doesn't it?

Wait. I'm not done yet. Next Saturday, silat has to perform for NYP Open House. Do come down and watch our performance next Saturday, 10 January 2009 at 3pm! It will be held at the atrium just outside the auditorium! There will be training next week from Monday to Friday. The following day after performance is Didi's birthday. I have yet to buy his birthday gift. Ahhhhhhh!

Feel the pressure? I'm feeling it. As always said by Nunu,

"Fuuuuuuuiiiiiii!".

MCG Production with NYP Silat

It's funny how you go through the year and nothing seems to change. But when you look back, everything's different. Hello 2009 (:

Hearing those words. Time suddenly stops. It got me thinking. Am I one of the victim? Am I suffering from the same thing? I kept pushing it away from my mind. But I can't. The truth was staring at me.

Should I stay or should I go? Should I continue and let myself suffer? Should I reveal the truth or keep it to myself and see what happen?

No clue what the hell am I talking about?

Heh. Tu lah.. Lain kali tengok TV, deng! Haaaaaaaa. Fikir lah sampai tua.

Don't we humans wish that this happens? In your dreams, toads.